There is so much going on with Peyton. It's likely that whatever is going on with her health right now is not an illness so much as it is a decline in her overall status. That is painful to see. It breaks my heart and it leaves me wondering how I am supposed to pray for her. "How" as in what direction my prayers are supposed to take. After all, this is a six year old child, not an elderly person who has lived a full life. How do you pray for full and perfect healing for a child without feeling incredible amounts of guilt?? In what form should I pray for her healing to occur? Or do I just pray for her to be pain-free and comfortable?
I feel lost. I feel helpless.
But a friend shared a scripture with me yesterday. It helps to ease some of the burden I have placed on myself.
And, so, I will continue to pray for her and let God decide the direction of those prayers. He knows her best and He knows what is best for her. I will trust in Him that He knows what He is doing.
That said, it still really stinks to watch your child in this state.